Blindside

I should have known better, I should have been aware, but it slipped by me.  We just found out that we have to pay just shy of another $2000 tomorrow to finish up our home study.  I'd like to say that I was calm and collective about that but in all honesty I had a mini meltdown.  I felt like the water I was treading along on consumed me in that moment.  

As I was sitting at the table (that I've been sitting at since I got home from my day job, it is now 9:51 p.m.) working on Origami Owl work, I got all choked up and poured my heart out to Jordan saying it's just not enough anymore.   Don't get me wrong, Origami is more than a blessing and has carried us thus far, however at this moment it is simply just not enough.  

So to add to the $2000 I thought I was behind on, I now have to tack on another $2000.  

So in the midst of my defeated feeling I cry out to God and say, "Lord you got this right?   Cause I don't, so I'm trusting in You to carry us through this one."  And a peace washes over me.  

Just keep swimming as Dory would say...... just keep swimming.

This blog will document the good, the bad, and the ugly.  I hope you will pray along side of us through all those moments.  :)